Life Without Me

Wow

its really been a long time since ive had the true feeling to write. im not a collector that just post what others post and i know it sounds snobby but unless it really catches my eyei dont usually diont repost it but for all of you that collect others works i love it i dont think that i would have any exposure with out the fallows. I’m writting tonight because i have something on my mind. throughout my life i have strove to push ahead of the cowd and swim against the current. i have felt a little too maine stream lately and have decided to push the bounds again i have been craving an implant. not like any other implant most of you have heard of . this one is made of implant gade silicone and would be in the shape of a tentical. i want it in my arm under a tattoo of my most favorite animal the octopus. i know that to most this breaks a few rules but thats its purpose i just want people to point and look and wonder what kind of freak am i. not for the attention i dont care about that because when you make some one unconfortable about something it sparks emotion and to me thats true art and its what i strive fopr every day

to all my fallowers

Sorry i havent posted in  while ive been struggling to find my center so when i do iull pick back up thanx

Afraid

The future is comming quick

it scares me

cant you see my hands shaking

or feel the shutter in my voices

i cant wait to be with you forever

but why am i so afraid

my hands tremble like an earthquake

its destructive

i just need to here your voice to quel my fears

cuase when im next to you i know itll all be okay

you keep my own corruption out of my head

when i close my eyes all i  can see is us living in some far off place

the sun warm against you face

small children playing at your feet

thats all i need to heel my soul

you are all i need

to heal my pain

News

Everything is starting to get scary

my terms as the kid i pretend to be is about to end

i can feel the time slip through my fingers

i cant help but to be afraid

I love her

As if a word so simple could describe how i feel

this short distance is killing me

when im away from her all i do is sleep

my dreams are filled with my fears of growing up

 i had a dream that we lived by the beach

 the next day i had lost her

i can feel her lying next to me in my bed like a ghost

i dont know ho i will feel when the time comes to leave

ship out

so i can support her

i couldnt live without her next to me

but fear the times when shes not

i

Danielle

small small small

but i only say that to annoy her

 she makes me happy

 makes me forget

 and most of all

CRAZY

i dont know how i would find north without you

its amazing becase it is

 and it needs no other words to describe it

i would fight for the chance to see you

and die to protect you

but dont ever forget when im holding you in my arms

i just want to melt with you

 until or bodies are puddles seeping into the carpet

i will never let you go

Jaunu(New)

ilve always been told the best things in life arent given to you

And like most of you i thought i knew what that ment but it seems to me that im just comming to understand what its truly about. It’s part of growing up when you realize something that you’ve always been told but this time it hit me like a rock. I’ve always been good at art and have sat here posting the things that others think are amazing in some sence and ive never really liked any of it. It’s always been easy i see something and sculpt it i feel the curves with my hand and know how to work to make it match my vision. I’ve been content to think that its suppose to be like this that the things that are easy will stay easy.but now ive found that not to be true. when i decided that it was time i reinvent my self in some way that i would change to become the person i thought i was inside. i pushed my self through dark times to find this glimmer of hope and when i started i thought that i would just drop myself into this new world and it would form around me but when it did it didnt hapen in the way i thought. at first i was the new flavor everyone wanted a piece of me and i was nice but i started to get old quick and i realized that no one really cared deep down they just wanted to be seen with the cute new kid. thats when it changed my popularity ran out quick and i was dropped into a well clinging to the side. this is the point where i had to work struggle, pull, and fight to get badck . everything has come easy to me without me trying. but it wasnt till now sitting on my couch txting my girl friend that i realized that she means so much more to me because of the struggles i made to get to this point and the effort i put into it. and now that i realized this im going to put my all into everything no matter how easy it was for me before. and thats why i call this New